Begging and Praying

Suddenly remembers old things
See's it flash before my eyes
Tears begin to fall
The fear
The panic
It all rises
Like the tide at mid-day
I sit here rocking
Back and forth
Back and forth
Trying to shake the fear that it will happen again
Praying
Hoping
Wishing
That it won't happen
The thought swirling round in my head
Taunting me
Showing my worst fear
I releaise how much worse it would be this time
I know I can't handle it
The tears flow faster
And faster
The tide of pain
And hurt
Getting higher
Needing to know that fate isn't going to kick
To know fate isn't that cruel
To know fate hasn't taken my last thing holding me to life
I know that if he goes
I won't be able to live
He is the only thing holding me here
I lose him and I die
I sit there rocking
Back and forth
Back and forth
Waiting
Hoping
That he will come walking back through that door
Walk over to me and hug me tight
The tears come faster
I start whimpering
Begging
That he'll be back soon
That I won't lose my angel
That he is fine
So I sit here
Crying
Begging
Hoping
And wishing
That he'll be home soon
And hold me close to him
So I can have my lovely angel
Who is everything I love
Back in my arms.