Good or bad?

I honestly think this may be a good thing for some, but I think it also shouldn't be done for silly reasons, such as the "Noone cares about me so why bother".
I am talking about sucide. I feel like sucide right now might be such a good thing, I seem to be causing people pain and trouble; so I started making notes of the pills in the house and seeing if we had strong pills and enough of them to end it.
I found out we did and took some of the strong pills, not enough to cause harm, but as a start and was about to head down stairs to get some others that would start making it at a dangerous level. Then I stopped myself, deciding to wait till it gets worse, when it does and if I feel this is the best way to stop it.
Tell me what you think and what you ahve thought of before and if you think I am correct or not on this?


Darkest wishes
-Sam